early morning mental agitation

a picture i took in china, was just browing through when i felt that it'll be able to illustrate so much better what i'm trying to say on this post. =)

sigh... it's nearing 3am in the morning and here i am, still awake and reluctant to go to bed. my minds been thinking a lot lately, so many things in this new year. with my job and career, my ministry, my family and also personal things that i have to iron out on my own. felt that the best of me is yet to come and somehow, 2006 seems like a really important year for me. not only am i a quarter of a century old, but i need to really sit down and think what's the future in store for me as well as planning and setting the standards and priorities proper. ohhh, interesting ehh? trusting God and constantly seeking Him for direction and guidiance, that's something i have to discipline myself to do everyday. i just wanna dedicate the year 2006 to God, and yeah... focus on Him alone and nothing else. somehow this post started out be me some emo post cos all i can stress and think about is my work and project under me, but it's turned out to be something different. God i need you so EVERMORE! please do not pass me by! i'm desperate for you! fill me that i my life might be a living testimony for this generation! isnt this life amazing? so fragile, and yet God is able to craft it into something so solid, a strong foundation, a pillar of strength, if only we just let Him in and take control of our lives. take example from the picture i took, the ice freezing up the leaves and plant. do not be icy cold about our lives and leave God out, cos beneath that layer of ice, there's life and God just wants to take it and make it grow and bloom and just serves it's purpose, to live and live life to it's fullest!